So, today, I'm going to share a little bit about things I have felt lacking lately in my life… As well as what I consider a recent failure, and how that made me feel!
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| {Keystone Elementary Park, 2013. Taken with iPhone 4S} |
Lacking certains things in life is a failure in a way.
No one wants to be without enough calcium, because then you're failing at keeping healthy bones, and osteoporosis doesn't sound too fun at all. As humans, we lack sources, we lack time, we lack ability… We are lacking creatures- the greatest part, we don't usually all lack the same thing. Isn't that beautiful?
As I think about things I feel I am lacking a few ideas bombard me:
- My spirituality is lacking. I often find myself so caught up in each moment passing by, or in the realities of my current situations- which is no excuse for this - that I forget to stop and be grateful for that waking morning, or the sunshine, or rain. I have found that when I am lacking this spirituality- that so quickly fluctuates for nearly everyone in highs and lows - I am not in a good position to realize my full potential, or function to my greatest ability. Talk about a hard time, and something missing.
- My 'chillness' is lacking. Okay, that was a poor choice of wording, but I like it, sorry! What I mean by this is that I have fallen so easy into a stressful lifestyle, and I find myself unable to control my feeling of being overwhelmed or stressed out. It's silly too, because I have so many outlets for this, including blogging, and you think it would help, but I don't let it. Silly Scottie.
- My motivation to adventure is lacking. This is so sad, but so true! I feel for an array of reasons this has become my reality- when my spirituality lacks, so does this… When I'm stressed out, I feel like I don't have time to adventure. I also have been slacking on taking photographs on a weekly basis, much less a monthly. These are all things I can fix, which is great! Now I just need to get active and do it!
Speaking of lacking, my latest significant failure was an internship I started in September after moving to campus and settling down with my course load. Course Hero partnered with Knowledge Drive is an online source available for high school and college students that allows each student to upload course materials such as; lecture notes, quizzes, power points, projects, ect. The non-profit Books for Africa is where the Knowledge Drive initiative comes into play- for every 10 documents uploaded, a book is donated to the organization. Currently, the 1 Million Books for Gambia project is collecting books to fill a school, library, and doctors teaching facility.
Anyway, my internship was considered a paid internship, in which I earned money from completing courses (completing a course was getting members of your group, or yourself to upload 10 or more documents for ONE subject). Needless to say, I have SO many notes from high school I was able to complete courses with, and made a few monies which excited me… But you see, I had a boss, who is fabulous and amazing in many ways, but also has a boss, and we both had goals. Unfortunately, being a freshman on such a small campus made my success very limited and I was forced to 'retire' from my business development internship with Course Hero Knowledge Drive.
While and intern here at Asheville, my group members and I donated 22 books to the Books for Africa organization. This, although small, makes my heart smile due to the simple fact that we contributed!
Although I failed with my internship, I learned SO much from participating, and I felt very blessed to even have such a great opportunity as a freshman. Little lows make for BIG highs, and eventually a happy living pattern- "I get knocked down, but I get up again, you're never gonna keep me down!"
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